Fell off the Planet

Been away, not physically.
Back now.
I've been thinking a lot about attraction. How it works, or doesn't.

Attraction doesn't creep up on me, no, for me it is a Bruce-Lee-Flying-Through-the-Air-Kick-to-the-Solar-Plexus type of thing.
Haven't experienced it in years. In it's absence I have tried various ways to cover the gap it has left.
I have tried to talk myself into attraction, and I am pretty persuasive, regardless that approach is not working.
Shit. I can't fake it.
Falling in lust is like picking a fight.
Falling in love can feel like winning one, falling out of love, well we all know that that feels like losing.
I should stop putting off those martial arts lessons, afterall you got to be ready for that first kick.